The Two Years Relationships

After Kenny’s incident, I began to lose confident with my relationship. I have not accept any relationships since I promoted to secondary two, is around nearly half a year. So I began to make myself busy so that I will not think of those unhappy things and when I am in front of my friends no matter how sad I am I will try to be strong and I smile and joke around. I don’t like the feeling, because this was not me. Haiz…

So on one Saturday afternoon, I decided to meet my friend out but I don’t know who to meet because all my close friends have to work on weekend, so, what about my secondary school friends? Although I have know them for 1 year but for me, I don’t really go close to them except for one girl and that is my best friend until now, her name was MS but that time me and her was not really that close and plus my secondary school friends don’t really understand me like my primary school friends. So I decided to go to my friend workplace and look for her.

So my friend works as a waitress at one of the hotel at Orchard. So when I reach my friend, Mary workplace. I glances around looking for Mary, I saw this guy who looks quite charming but not really handsome sitting at the corner of the café eating his lunch while reading book. Mary saw me standing at the café entrance and told me to wait for her and she told me that she is going to knock off for her work. So I seat the table behind the guy. Quite interesting, this guy actually attracted my attention and make me have a curious of wanted to know him better. So I take a big breathe and went up to the guy. To my surprise he was really very friendly and nice and makes me feel really comfortable when I first talk with him. We chatted for a hour until Mary knock off from her work and when I was about to ask him for his phone number, he actually ask me for the number before I am going to ask him. I was laughing and smiling for that day.

I am always thinking that on Saturday, that guy who asks me for the phone number before I ask him will not really call. And I decided to call that guy. When I were about to find his number, my phone rang, and is that guy that I am thinking. So I pick up my phone and answer his call, at first he told me his name was Tony which we met at the café at Orchard. He asked me whether I am free on Sunday afternoon; he would like to meet me out for a lunch. I was so happy and told him that I will meet him at 12 noon, so he told me that he will pick me up under my block. I felt so excited that I can’t sleep for the night.

I was so excited, even though I slept quite late on the previous night but I still wake up very early to pick my clothing and prepare myself. I spent two hour to prepare myself. A few minutes reaching 12 noon, I was getting more excited.

So when the clock reaches 12, I walk down and to my surprised I saw Tony was waiting for me near the elevator but when we saw each other I really don’t know what to say. Both of us were silent for a few second and next Tony break the silent with a “hi, where you would prefer to have our lunch?” “Up to you, I am ok with anything.” I reply. So he brought me to the road with is very near to my block and he suddenly open a car door, I was so surprise, he invited me in to the car, so I went in. I was thinking such a young guy and he look the same age as me, how can he drive and how he got the money to buy a car for himself? Ha ha…as I was thinking, Tony already sat beside me and there was an uncle sitting at the driving seat. The moment I saw the uncle I can’t control myself and I began to laugh at myself being so stupid and so foolish that I really think too much. So when Tony saw me laughing and being curious and start to ask me what is it so funny. So I told him that what about my foolish thinking and he began to laugh too.

Oh no…what and embarrass situation. I can feel that my face is really red and hot and I can’t even dare to look at Tony face. How I wish I can find a hole to hide. So I use my both hands to cover my face. Tony found that I beginning embarrass, he use his hand to take my both hands away from my face and told me that is ok and he even told me that I am the first girl he met will make him laugh so happily at the first time meeting. Oh my god…these words make my face redder and worst y heart beats much faster as usual but I feel quite sweet.

So after that lunch, a few weeks later we began to stead together. I feel that steadying with Tony I feel very comfortable and whenever we have problem we will tell each other and try to give advice to each other

But sometime what I really can’t stand is sometime Tony will have some 大少爷temper but can understand because he born to be a rich boy of course will have this temper but sometime is very difficult to tolerate him. Whenever he started his大少爷temper I will ignore him until he knows that he is wrong or sometime is the other way round I will scold him before he start to talk. So when time passes, at least in front of me he do not dare to raise his voice or he do not dare to vent his anger to me and I also realize that he tried to use another way to calm himself down when he his in front of me.

And like this we can be together for two years. Happy moment will not last, till one day his cousin, Jamie come back to Singapore from Australia and she lives at Tony house. Till one evening Tony brought me to his house to have a dinner with his family and at the same time he wants to introduce me to his cousin, Jamie. So when Jamie knew that Tony has a girlfriend, she seen to be unhappy.

Whenever Tony and I went for dating, Jamie will appear in front of us or when Tony and I was holding hands Jamie will separate our hand and walk in between us. I always feel that Jamie always purposely do these just want to separate Tony and me, at first I thought is I am thinking too much but one day Jamie called me and invite me to Tony house and she told me that she had something important to tell me.

So when I reach Tony house, at first she invite me for a tea but after some talk she told me that she fall in love in Tony since she was young and she won’t give up Tony. And more ridicule was she even kneels down in front of me and begs me to break up with Tony. When I was about to Jamie to stand up, Tony just came back from school, this time Jamie pretend that is I push her and pretend to fall and what Tony saw was the scene that Jamie fall herself.

So Tony immediately went up to Jamie and help her up, what I can do is just stand over there and I really don’t know what to do, next Jamie told Tony that she just want to invite me for a tea and next I push her away. But the problem is I did not do anything to her. Why she have to lie to Tony? And Tony went up to me and asks why I am doing this to Jamie. I was so speechless. I don’t how to explain to Tony and what I can really do that time was I walk away. What really disappointed me was that day when I walked away, Tony doesn’t even come after me.

The next day, when I just dismiss from my school and walk home, Tony was waiting for me under my blk. The first question he asked me when he saw me was why I need to push Jamie yesterday. I explain to him that I did not push her, in fact she fall herself but Tony does not believe. Such a disappointment, my boyfriend doesn’t believe me. So the next thing I told him was if i have already explain and tell the truth if he choose not to believe me, I have no choice and I think there is no use for being together and I told him to break up.



Although break up is hurt but if he don’t believe in you, there is no point still being together again.

The Saddest Love

After I broke up with Jim, I became a play girl because I do not really know what I need and what I want for my relationship. My whole mind is only thinking of my first lover Mike. I began to date with some boys that I know in MRIC or MSN. Whenever I went out with all this boys, what I will do with them was shopping, having lunch or dinner or went for a movie. Although I do not really love them I just don’t want myself to be lonely or to have any free time. And I even dated with my classmate who I always don’t like to date with the guy which in school or in class. And most unbelievable was in three month I have change 25 boyfriends, excluding Mike and Jim. And all this 25 relationship I do not put in any of my love.

Till one day my friends invited him to my birthday party, I saw this guy, quite handsome, soon this guy came over to me and talk to me. Although my heart is beating fast, but I just acted to be calm and talk to him. His name is Kenny, so after the party, he invited me for coffee at the café.

After the coffee treat, Kenny and I became couple, and this time my feeling to Kenny was really love and the kind of feeling was when we do not see each other will miss each other and every time when I am in school will thinking of him and hope that the school will end as fast as possible.

Kenny was 3 years older than me, that time he was still studying like me but he was not the same school as me. So every time when we end our school we will go home and change our clothes and straight away will meet each other.

Of course we have quarrel but he was away the one who can and said sorry to me and he will tried everything to make me smile and I still remember that there was a time he made me angry and the next day he brought boxing gloves and a ring for me and told me that if I am really very angry with him I can used the boxing gloves and hit him, he will not run away but after I finished using the boxing gloves I must accept the ring. So I asked him what the ring represents. So he told me that the ring represent of him, whenever I missed him I can just look at the ring just like I am looking at the ring and the ring will always belongs to me not other girl.

And he told me that he wants me to married him when I became 21 years old. Although I don’t know whether we can still be together when we grow up but after hearing his promise I felt touch and accept his ring.

After a month later Kenny told me that he will be going to China with his parents for a week but he promise he will call me every night when he reach China. Although I do not want him to go but no choice, so I just bear with it for one week.

On the day when he wants to fly to China with his parent I went to the airport. At the airport he promised that the first thing he will do when reach China was he will call me and he told me that he will miss me and remind me that when I missed him I can look at the ring that he gave me.

So Kenny kept his promise he reached China for the forth day, he will called me every morning and tell me what he do at China, but I did not received his call on the fifth day. Finally I waited for the day he needs to return to Singapore, but suddenly I began worry about him. So I went to the airport with my friend, although my friend beside me keep on telling me that I am over worry about him but all I am thinking were I need to confirm myself that he is really alright.

So we waited for an hour, finally I saw Kenny parents coming out but I did not saw Kenny, what I saw was Kenny’s brother was holding Kenny’s photo, so I ran up to his parent and asked about Kenny. They told me that on the sixth day at China, when they were shopping at the China, after Kenny went out of the shop cross the road, a car knocked him down. When I heard this my tears began to roll down from my cheek. Kenny’s parents told me that when they send Kenny to the hospital, Kenny told his parent to pass me the box and asked me not to cry, after he told his parents all those words, he passed away. After they finish telling me what Kenny want to tell me they pass the box that Kenny brought for me from China. So I open the box that Kenny asked his parents to pass to me. After I opened the box, I can not control myself and began to cry badly, Kenny brought me a necklace that had a heart shape and in between the heart it wrote “K&K” which mean Kenny & Kelli.

After that my friend accompanies me to the cemetery. In front of Kenny cenotaph (sorry I don’t know whether it spell like this or is it suitable for using), all I think was what we have done for the pass four months, how we met, how he make me smile and how he protect me. I began to cried again, looking at the ring and the necklace he gave it to me and remember he told me before whenever I missed him I can just look at the ring just like I am looking at the ring and the ring will always belongs to me not other girl and he told me that he wants me to married him when I became 21 years old.

That day I really cried really badly and out of sudden I just can’t be brave to face the facts that Kenny had death and leaves me just like that. A few hours later, after I had finish crying, I remember Kenny’s mother told me that before Kenny pass away, he asked his mother to tell me not to cry. So I stood up and I looked at Kenny’s cenotaph, I told him that I will try very hard to be brave and I will not cried anymore and whenever I missed you, I will take out the ring and the necklace you gave it to me.

Until now, sometime I will be thinking of him and remind of the happy moment we had, I chooses not do forget because I want it to be a memory that will always stay in my heart.


Although you had lost a person that you love but you have to continue your our path way, I believe when times goes by, what’s hurts you will recover and you will treat it as a memory in your hearts.

After My 1st Love

A few month later, my primary school best friend May asked me to accompany her to town to buy her things for her school project and at the same time we can went there for a window shopping. So May meet me at my nearest MRT station, when I reach the MRT station I was very surprise to see Jim. Jim is my first lover best friend and both of them are same age (15). We did not meet for a few months since my first lover had gone to USA. When I saw Jim the first things remind me is the first time we met at the shopping centre with my first lover. When we were in the train we were chatting happily and May and Jim will try to avoid saying those things related to my first lover.

So May, Jim and me when for a shopping at orchard road and May found her stuff and at the same time we brought a lot of things, although at first we thinking of doing a window shopping but when girls or a woman saw something they like it they will buy it and once we buy we can’t stop. And whatever we brought Jim will volunteer to help us to carry and this make us feel that he is really a gentleman.

After a few hours we feel very tired and we decided to go to the nearest café to have a break and drink something. After that we decided to go home because May had met her boyfriend for dinner. So Jim told me that he will send me home, when we were on our way home, Jim told me that he actually fall in love with me since the day we hang out together but after he found out that Mike (that is the name of my first lover) really likes me and after we were dating and he decided to put this feeling in his heart, but that day, at change airport, he saw me crying badly and the first things he wish he would do was went up to me and lent his shoulder to me. Jim told me that he wish that I would give him a chance to lent his shoulder to me when I am sad. I felt so shocked and so touch. So I told him that I decided to give one another a chance to try. Jim was so happy and he asked me whether I am free to meet him the next day.

When Jim and I were dating, I feel so comfort but I do not know why I felt that the feeling for me to him is not love all the while I just treat him as a big brother, was not like the feeling I have when Mike and I was together.

After I had realized my feeling with Jim I felt that I must tell him about it, so that we will not waste time with each other. Although we had broke up but until now we are still friends.


Although break up really needs lots of guts but when you realize that you do not have any feeling with your partner, please do not waste time with each other because if you continue this relationship that guy or girl will not be happy.

My 1st Love

Actually when I was young I know what the meaning of “LOVE” is and I really read the books that related to love. When I was in primary six, one of my schoolmates asked me whether I can be his girlfriend. So thinking that why not give a try and I did not take it seriously. So that time I do not know whether was counted my first love but to me this was not the first love because I don’t really take it seriously. To me, my first love is when I was in secondary one and that is when I am around 13.

I know my first lover at the shopping centre (haha…I forgot where the place was). I remember that time I was with my primary school. So as usually, my friend and I were doing our shopping but as we walk, my friend banged into the two guys that were talking happily as they walk. So my friend shopping bags had drop on the floor. So the two guys quickly went up to us and help my friend to pick up those bags. As we were picking up the bags on the floor, I found out that one of the bags with contains crystal had break. When the two boys heard what I said and he came forwards to me and told us to give them our phone number and when they have found and brought the same crystal, they were give us a called.

So a few days later, I received a called from a guy and he told us that they had brought the same crystal as we brought last week and he would like to meet us out. So we meet him at the same place that we met first time. When we met that guy pass us that crystal so after we took that bag, the guy suddenly told us that he and his friend would like to ask whether we can be his friends so we nodded our head.

So from there onwards we were hanged out together. After a month, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I agree. So when we were together, I really feel very happy and feel the secure that he gave me. Whenever I do he will really support me and when I need listening ears, he will really listen to me and advise me. And whenever I need a shoulder he will be there for me. Wherever I wanted to go he will surly brought me there and when I am sick he will bring me to doctor or he will really brought some medicine for me. He really is a very good boyfriend.

But the at last we still break up. Why??? Because his parent plan to send him USA to study but he don’t wish to go. The reason he does not want to go was he can’t bear to leave me. After he told me this, I suddenly feel so stress and feel so down I don’t want him because of me he can’t go for studies but I also can’t bear to leave him so I decided to break up with him.

So after I told him about break up and the reason, on the day that he needs to go to USA, I went to change airport with my friends to see him off, he told me some words before he goes off that still in my heart was he told me that “please promise me that when I came back from USA I hope to see you found your true love and promise me that you were find a boyfriend that is better than me, love you more than me, and last very important don’t let you drop any tears. But if you really find such a person, is ok you can always come to me. No matter what I were always be there waiting for you. This is my promise you”. My tears rolled down from my cheek and my hearts really pain. He gave me a long kissed and told me “I Love You” and he goes off. Looking at his back, slowly disappeared, I really can’t controlled myself, I cried this time my heart is bleeding. I never feel so hurt and cried so badly, my friend saw me crying so badly, she quickly comfort me but no matter what I just can’t stop. My friends was very worry about me so she send me home.

At night, I can’t really can’t sleep I just keep thinking the past few month what we being doing together and I cried again. I had been crying for a few night. But as time goes by, although the pain goes off but the memory will be always staying with me.